a few notes on my book writing

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"my book is personal storytelling ~ 

this storytelling is as art-centered as possible-- i pull from my body of creative concepts + share my performance art imagery as it aligns with my words.   

i also discuss my recovery related to (living with) Complex PTSD, the healing of intergenerational trauma, my path as a pattern-breaker, & more. 

... hope is often the thread, & beauty always winz, but a bitch is also getting hella real & a lil ratchet, which i acknowledge is an approach that won't be 4 everyone."
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“The speaking will get easier and easier.
And you will find you have fallen in love
with your own vision ... And you will lose
some friends and lovers, and realize you don’t
miss them. And new ones will find you and
cherish you. And at last you’ll know 

with surpassing certainty that only one
thing is more frightening than speaking your
truth. And that is not speaking.” -Audre Lorde

** “I want to get to that place where

I don’t have the strength to 

hide anything.” -Bobbi Jene

** “In understanding your past, you
give your present and future, a
chance.” -Chani Nicholas

** “Forbidden anger, women could find no 

voice in which publicly to complain; 

they took refuge in depression.”
-Carolyn Heilbrun

** “Telling your story is a part
of thriving.” -Reverend Saundra Porter Thomas

** "Shame dies when stories are told in safe places." 

-Ann Voskamp

** "Sharing our stories is a form of self-care. When we see ourselves in each other we open a gateway of permission to feel less alone, less vulnerable, more fortified, more free." -Rachel Cargle

** "To cancel generational curses, stop keeping family secrets hidden." -Stanley Carter

** “If you are silent about your pain, 

they will kill you and say you enjoyed it.” 

-Zora Neale Hurston

** "Gentle reminder: When you are not verbalizing it,

you're storing it. Speak your truth." -@sistersvillage

** “We can transform silence into language 

and action.” -Audre Lorde

** “Check in with the ways that you
justify changing the truth to protect
others’ feelings, or more accurately,
to protect others’ feelings about you.” 
-The Hoodwitch

** "You're a victim until you're able to 

articulate your victimhood-

and then you're a threat." -James Baldwin

** “... radical forgiveness permits you to
do some internal reflection, remove the
victimization, feel the feels, and reveal
to heal.” @amberthealchemist

** “Once you become aware, 

you become responsible.”
-Iyanla

personal concept:

i don’t need to start over;
i need to speak up.

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diary of a meltdown has been forming for some time-- since shortly before my 35th birthday in July 2017. in February of 2018, i gave the project its working title-- i also began to collect and organize focused research. in late April of this same year, i conducted two pertinent interviews for the project too ~ all shortly after i got my hands on a treasure of an ETHNOGRAPHY about the relationships between
foreign women with the local men of Puerto Viejo,
Costa Rica, the place i'd called home the last 3 years.
holy shit, did the light bulbs start to go off--
i had the framework for what i'd experienced; there was
compassionate scientific data that was helping me to
understand the experience i'd personally had in the last
year+ in an abusive relationship.

peep me on INSTAGRAM for creative updates along the way.
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