foto: statia grossman, copyright 2016-forever

foto: statia grossman, copyright 2016-forever

Friday, July 21, 2017

she real

*embellished by me*

... some stream-of-consciousness thoughts (from today) around *the feel$, identity, my inner*life.* ... "at the forefront of july, $PIRIT proclaimed 2 me, 'take it easy this month.' my to-do lists have hardly been touched, & i'm finally ... kinda*almost surrendered 2 diggin' spirit's direction, giggle!! it's so important 2 have self-care time. 2 not push so hard that u burn out, *but* i recognize that it's still a part of my work ~ 2 accept when i need plenty of space from people, places, public, order. all i want is nature. my cats. nothing on my calendar. ... & 2 not be all 'achievement achievement achievement' // 'what am i doing with my life?' i have needed space 2 integrate this month, 2 anticipate, 2 mourn, 2 be me ... all the messy*gorg pieces of her ... 2 accept that i have this strand of sadness almost always present inside of me, & i don't reject it ~ it's so very real ~ reminds me of how deeply i feel, of how amazing & challenging it is 2 empathize @ the levels i do. having said all of these things, which r true 4 me, i still prefer sunshine, glitter, butterflies, dark*chocolate, etc. over *the ouch* ... but goodness me, i am me i am me i am me & i am beyond me too. learning surrender. still learning forgiveness. learning 2 trust my boundaries, my kick*ass*super*strong*intuition*bordering*on*psychic*prowess ... learning 2 not care so much about who likes me, who doesn't, who understands me, does not. accepting that i am lovely & wise in the same moments i am doubtful, honest, aching, & ugly. these depths are not 4 the faint of heart; my heart is not faint ... it pulses like a LOUD golden motor, yo. it just does." #artistslife fotos: J-Art Photography de la artista, Kelly Shaw Willman, ©.


Sunday, July 9, 2017

35th b-day

foto de la artista by krista abramoff

it is my 35th b-day tomorrow.

i freaking love b-days ~

& will prolly celebrate for the next 99 days at least. :P

me on my 1st b*day w/ the ocean, north carolina

a few things, en serio, though ~ ~ ~ 

my on-going gofundme has been napping the last week+ ...

& i've decided 2 pump it up in honor of my b*day.

my next goal is 2 raise $200 more to pay my collaborator, 

mike, of THE GROW CULTURE ... 

to see my "media package vision" fully thru. 

in a short & sweet explanation, this means that i am able to share my story as an artist in the form of fotos & promo-style videos. 

my current mood, for fun. 

this material will allow me to take my social media game to the next levels ~

... to share my work thru high-quality footage of performance art rituals, primarily. 

^ being seen is important ^

i'm ready.

a bunch of folks donating smaller amounts ~ 

... $5-$11/each goes a long way ...

while larger-scale patronage helps me do bigger things, obvi. 

... like, paying 4 a website, 

getting back to nyc to film, 

getting started on my EP.

peek-a-boo, i luv u 

for the big picture, 

click here: https://www.gofundme.com/artedekellyshaw

i am also offering a b-day $ALE 2 my online clients thru my etsy store.

CLICK HERE ~ 

enter the code: BDAY35 @ check-out 4 a 35% discount thru tomorrow.

(locally, i will give away one item in a drawing.)

i want nothing more 4 my b*day than to be celebrated 
4 what i do ~
make art. live as art. 

you can go so far as to $UPPORT by donating to my campaign.

love,

kelly shaw willman, artista *




Monday, June 26, 2017

new merch ~ etsy

check out 121 active listings on my etsy store, 


until this friday, june 30th, 
enter NEW11YES @ checkout 
for a discount of 11%. 

new items each month!!

local workshops!!

below: kelly shaw willman's original creations, 
foto cred: hai phung creative







Wednesday, June 21, 2017

self-designed art grant

i have self-designed an art grant thru gofundme. 

plz take 11 minutes to learn about it if u plz. 

donations of $5 from many folk$ goes a long way. 

larger-scale donations could change my life.

read on, dear strawberry ~ ~ ~ 

love,

kelly shaw willman, artista *

https://www.gofundme.com/artedekellyshaw

foto de la artista by statia grossman,
copyright 2 thee artists alway$

Friday, June 16, 2017

u don't have 2 look ~

iphone foto by statia, post-performance, brooklyn,
copyright 2 thee artists always.

u don't have 2 look @ my art, but if you do, thnx. 
xtra thnx if you genuinely support. :P :)

in the recent past, my artist's page on facebook (https://www.facebook.com/kellyshaw11artwas reported, and in 6+ months of communicating with facebook about a broken link, i only got general responses from their team that didn't help me to re-store the page promptly.

today, i am dealing with a temporary block on all facebook pages (jewelry, art, and personal) because again, someone reported an art image of mine, or possibly the recent image that i re-shared of amber rose's, the top of her pussy exposed.

click here for a related amber rose article

p.s. none of my personal artwork (photos online) are fully nude except for on my blog, which comes now with a disclaimer. it's not clear to me to what extent fb is banning photos, or requesting their removal ~ those that allude to nudity?

so, because i cannot communicate on facebook right now except for messages, i wrote about this all on twitter (@kellyshawbunny) and will re-share in more depth here on my blog: 

* * *

my womb and my breath are perfectly calm as i write this, dear strawberry. i am not triggered in this moment, or generally anymore, by those who troll my work, my posts, my re-shares on social media. plz feel invited 2 un*friend, un*follow, not check*up on my blog ... if the reclamation of my body (nude, not nude) offends you. #mybodmyart #mychoice


original foto: krista abramoff of kelly shaw willman,
copyright to thee artists

performance art, thru its whole history, has contained nudity. for me personally, nude expression is the most vulnerable, beautiful, and fearless means of reclaiming how i am experienced as an artist. i invite you vs. impose on you, the viewing (or non-viewing) of said work ~ #yourchoice #getclearonthathomie

i am grateful to be in my 30's, cuz this "reporting of images," resulting in the subsequent block (temporary, it seems) from my advertising + posting online, doesn't personally offend me anymore, as it did in my 20's, when my life was almost always sore and crumbling. it's inconvenient tho!

(... you'd lead me to believe i was doing something wrong all the time ... i was not; i am not.)

self-portrait by kelly shaw willman, copyright always.

i choose to speak up for myself now, because it's taken all of this time, since the age of 19 when i was first raped, and simultaneously abandoned by my (then) closest family member ... (for becoming myself) ~ ~ ~ 

... to learn how to beto re*learn how to be ...
... to teach myself ... how to speak ... how to sing again ...
... how to accept the shadows, but live less in them ...

that's 16 years, dear strawberry ~ math i've recently done ... far too much life, far too much time to suffer with PTSD and inadequate support

i am again grateful, so grateful, that you (you know who) have helped to shape my personal foundation as solid ~ made of diamonds, rubies, and glitter.

i'm steady as *fok* even when i'm not steady.

~ and i've always chosen the *beauty*way* even on the darker day$ ~

also, i am reclaimed. straight up. #ritualritesofpassage #almost35


post-performance of kelly shaw willman by statia on iphone, brooklyn,
copyright to thee artists always.

in loyalty to the work first and always ~

in gratitude for your respect ~

la artista, 

kelly shaw willman *

and again, plz don't look if my work offends, b/c all that i'm trying to do is grow my biz, my presence, my art, my he/art ~ it's my right. 

Friday, March 3, 2017

jungle-sentiment


today, i took a look @ myself in a darkened glass doorway in town, which reflected my shape unto me, know what i mean? i didn't have access 2 a full*length mirror as i was getting ready, but i felt really good, so i left the house & bused on in. 

... my thighs, hips, booty, & arms are big; i am big. 
MACHOTA. 
... my wrists, hands, feet, & teeth are small; 
my proportions r fascinating. 

i see so many ancestors in me. 

... i was reflecting 2*day on the magnitude of healing i've known by being here in costa rica. floating in the ocean 4 hours on end when i began coming here 5 years ago was wordless medicine. the jungle (i am based here now) teaches me blooming, surrender, lovelovelove, sisterhood, depth*beyond*depth. 

sometimes i revel @ this past. my past. whose past? 

... i ritually release what was, making space 4 the big life that is. just grateful 2 revel in the world @ this time in the name of art. feeling sweet & tired. i am a fierce fucking panther. u*r*2. don't forget, porfa. 


Wednesday, January 11, 2017

GUATEMALA $$$

dear friend ~

in a focused 2-week gofundme campaign, i am rallying for $420 towards my trip to guatemala at the end of the month. check out this link for all the juicy details!!

love,

kelly *


foto: StatiaPhotography


note : : : january 23, 2017 (checking back in) : : : 

the outpouring of donations to my gofundme campaign mean more than words can touch ~ it's all really timely and sweet to me, b/c the world needs art and friendship and support now more than ever. 

... and my asking has been answered with such kindness.

i will also share my budget (general) soon.

check out these links!


BELLY BEAD WORKSHOPS

UPDATE : : : APRIL 26, 2017 : : :

it always takes longer to get crowdfunding updates and prizes out than i think it will, so, i thank u incredibly for your patience. all prizes, if not yet delivered locally in-person, will go out within the first week in may. i'm done with all your goodies, just needing to package and address. 


... and here is the very simplified version of how $ was used, which i committed to sharing with you. i raised $657 of $420. gofundme took 8%, or about $53. with the remaining $604 i used ~ 


$220 on lodging


$130 on transportation


$180 on art supplies


$100+ on food 


$50 on miscellaneous ~ which included a few toiletries, drops for an eye infection, and airport taxes. 


... this total comes to $680+. i used some funds that came "under the table" vs. through gofundme's link, for extra costs.


thank u so ~ 


love,


kelly shaw willman *

Monday, December 26, 2016

embelli$hed

i've called these recent images, "alien-embelli$ments // vi$ion-boarding." shared originally to facebook, i'm adding an on-going archive here on my blog.

love, la artista ~

kelly shaw willman *


original foto: statia grossman

original foto: krista abramoff

original foto: carlos ramirez

original foto: krista abramoff

original foto: statia grossman

original foto: krista abramoff

original foto: jesse artavia

original foto: statia grossman

original foto: krista abramoff



orig foto: statia grossman // statia photography

Monday, December 12, 2016

a few thingz

i just wanted to share a few thingz (that are completed and/or up-coming) about my creative life, etc. my blog serves as an archive of experiences and art*centered*expressions, so i am simply "keeping note" if you will, by publishing this brief article. 

recently, ART BOREAL 4 GANDHI released a dope music video. i had the pleasure of being on-set in heredia (costa rica) the 1st day of shooting, and am stoked to support this gorg song w/ important messages within. what high vibes and rad team work ~ really a cool time!! #honored ... you will see me in the vid for a few moments @ the beginning. 


i am super*excited 2 have been selected as a scholarship recipient to the first SOUL SEED GATHERING in guatemala. feeling stoked to share space with fellow brujas, but above all, honestly, am elated to give a performance that marks my first fully*nude*public*work as part of my on-going project, new/mind/ritualz, which you can read about HERE. i have been provided a few opportunities lately in which *safe space* is made to express my raw, quirky, unconventional interests. thank u, sisterz, 4 nourishing my bravery. 

also very honored to be a scholarship recipient to a dope biz seminar (a first of its kind) lead by the brilliant adi shakti of PASSION YOGA SCHOOL. i *really* feel like this is gonna be "the tipping point" for taking my creative and financial life to the next*levez. is it MARCH yet? :P CHECK OUT THE SEMINAR HERE.

i wrote an 11-page art proposal over the course of two months recently that made me so strong and so vulnerable and so loca and so ready and so EVERYTHING. when it comes true (art funding) i will have a booty*load of new material for you. 

life is shifting incredibly. the jungle is nuts. i continue to learn (beyond wordz.)

stay tuned for "next-level artistry" alwayz. i have a lot on the horizon, and will share details more thoroughly around the new year itself. 

HINTS :: an artist's website, new etsy store offerings, a mini*experimental*jungle*opera, a performance art book, a short*film+music*vid taking place in brooklyn, and so on ~ ~ ~ 

xoxxxxxxx,

kelly shaw willman, artista *


from my "$elf-portz" series

from my "$elf-portz" series









Thursday, September 29, 2016

everything, practically *

please note that this article contains nudity. please also note that this article is long-winded. please lastly note that this article became a sorta manifesta written by me to me. if there are angles that prove helpful to you, too cool. (basically, i pep*talked myself back into being me.) 
~ xoxxx, la artista, kelly shaw willman *

foto: statia grossman

"$elf-portz" #14 *feelings*

it's sorta funny. i set out to write these epic, organized blog articles sometimes, but really, it's that this one wants to be an exercise in flow ~ in sharing a diary*like, inner*world*on*display*sorta*reflection that honestly speaks to what i've been experiencing these last few months. ... and i've decided to approach it by trusting that all the things i've been observing + considering will find their way out, cuz abiding by bullet-note prompts doesn't feel cute right now, giggle. :P :P :P

so, here i go ... about ... everything, practically *


1. i've been thinking a lot about a time in the past (maine, united states, 2010*ish) in which i was first coaxed by spirit to make nude performance art. for me, *coaxed by spirit* means that a force and feeling (greater than me) asked that i channel healing though expression, that i fuse (conceptually) sweetness with dirt. 

i do not believe this remembering is an accident ~ on the contrary, it's incredibly timely and filled with symbolism, a message. as a being who lives a spiritual, eclectic (artist's) life, signs/dreams/words*unspoken all guide me as i need to be guided ~ i believe in this sorta thing, have experienced it since childhood, and am incessantly deepening my connection to an understanding of it all ~ visions and intuition playing a foundational part. reviewing images of this (first-time) nude art reminds me that i, in spite of having a considerably introverted and highly empathic personality, put it all out there (in my own way) when it comes to my artistry. 


"grunge*quest" ~ movement 1 (foto: janna o'shea)

i decided a long time ago that my own personal journey would be on display through the medium of performance art ~ that my stories, my progress, my setbacks, my ritualizing, my changeable aura ... would be made a public offering intended to bring an experience to viewers, evoking conversations that i participate in by making more art, and honoring along the way aesthetics i am loyal to: the genre of experimental art, diy/lo-fi stylings, and the *creative underground.* 

... i know that i was coaxed to make this nude art in the past to begin healing some raw personal trauma ... and i am coaxed to review this art now, because it reminds me that i did not question making it ~


* i got naked.

* i was brave. 
* and i endured harassing emails about said work, but kept the art public nonetheless. 

what about re-empowering all of this fierceness once again? 


what about going more deeply with my *divine masculine?* ... which to me means standing consistently in my confidence, not giving two hoots what anybody's gotta say about me, my work? what up, machete*yielding*warriorrrr? :P

"uphill invisible swimming" ~ movement 4

"uphill invisible swimming" ~ movement 5

"uphill invisible swimming" ~ movement 5

"uphill invisible swimming" ~ movement 4

i've been experiencing a pretty transformational phase the last 2-4 months of my life. to expand upon this proclamation means admitting i've been generally overwhelmed, depressed, nervous in my belly, i've allowed my plate to be too full, but quite interestingly, my life also sparkles brilliantly. my near*future is forming in a way i wholly adore, i have incredible friendships still and always, i live in costa rica, i am INSPIRED, and i KNOW that i'm aligning with my deeper purpose, my niche, my money-making.

2. let's remain on the topic of art for now. i've also been thinking *a lot* about a video from a favorite artist, BUNNY MICHAEL ~ SEE BELOW. i highly encourage you to watch the whole thing. her ideas in the beginning about being perceived through the lenses of egotism, narcissism, and delusion (by family, for example) have been coming up for me recently ... while there are brilliant reminders throughout this vid's entirety, the end also provides a gorgeous highlight ~ (skip thru if you must.) ... "dear artist, we need you. when you are living free, we feel like we can too." 




i needed to hear this ~ to be reminded that i am enough, to be reminded that in spite of coming from a place (with systems, conditioning) that does not readily understand or support artists, that keeps women down, i must keep forging the path for myself, for us. ... i have always known that i can do it, that i will make it in my own way, that my goals are worth pursuing ... and in living out these beliefs, believing that there is value in my expressions ... well, it doesn't mean that i am some gloating invaluable crazy person with too much self*interest.

3. so the moral of the story thus far? be fiercely true to you, to your unique vision. push boundaries if pushing boundaries pleases you. my art speaks to my own path/experience, but i also understand now its greater intention to uplift the divine feminine, to heal past generations of women, and to do so through a distinct*kelly*lens that empowers my own sexuality, my own feminism, my own participation in the community of sisterhood. ... there is def a 


"brooklyn-meets-jungle-priestess-but-i-was-
raised-on-a-farm-vibe" 

a lil' 
"hiphop*sassy*stripper-girl*juju" 
sometimes 

... and i'm coming to realize i neither need nor hope anymore that my aesthetic will resonate with everyone ~ (this is my divine masculine at play!) ... this is also a new understanding that allows me to thrive without tip-toeing around imagined (or real) concerns coming from thee outside (looking in.) 

... i will expand upon all this in a separate/focused article, but one more point i will make here is that i observe and experience the objectification of women ~ a huge topic. i've been challenged to consider recently that in expressing myself in a sexy*style i am contributing to this problem ... to women being perceived as objects for men's viewing or fantasy-oriented pleasure. for me, what is at play in my personal expressions, is self*love and reclamation, no matter how bootylicious a performance image or vid may be. ... in eve ensler's "vagina monologues," one particular story speaks to a woman wearing a short skirt, and that it doesn't mean (there are dozens of examples provided) that she is inviting cat calls or mistreatment of any variety by baring legs. ... i am creating a safe (art) space to express myself as i please ... as a sacred entity with depth, depth! ... how does my creative message bring this depth to the forefront (or maybe sometimes just the periphery) whilst being real, sexy, tearful, vulnerable, human ~ anything i need to be; i explore this.

foto: statia grossman

foto: statia grossman

"uphill invisible swimming" ~ movement 6 (embellished)

4. ok, so i wanna create a little stylistic transition now and express more concisely some of the things i've been learning lately. a lot of this learning is distinctly tied to my new life in the south caribbean jungle of costa rica. without access to this particular community, i'd honestly not be learning as i am. 

ok, so mainly, i live amongst a whole crew of powerful women who are successful entrepreneurs; it's AMAZING. each woman has her own unique thing going on, and there is so much space for growth, heart*centered*money*making. i have recently realized that in order for me to really grow my creative business as i envision, i need to propose some financial backing, not much honestly, but enough to hatch my "next level." i say all of this to ultimately encourage you to do the same if you need it. is there a person, business, or crowdfunding platform that would help? i have learned so much about my own vision and goals by simply surrendering to this need. i am writing a proposal that is well-done, organized, smart, and i'm proud of it. so, 

* ask without expectation about an outcome. have plan b's and c's.

* my dear spiritual mentor, reverend saundra porter thomas, reminds me, "building your empire takes a team. your queendom needs support." again, ask. don't beat yourself up for needing help. financial backing is brilliant, so is excellent mentorship ~ pursue it, and maintain open communications throughout. i have gone so far as to publish spending reports online, because i wanted my indiegogo campaign (last year) to be transparent. "this is where each dollar went."

* keep yourself "in the know" about grants, residences, and opportunities to submit your work. you deserve the next, next, and next levels of your business/artistry. keep putting yourself out there. 


"$elf-portz" #16 *roses rise, promise*

* in being able to apply for the sorts of things mentioned in the "*" above, allow yourself a window several times a week to research and apply. artists really do need TIME. a friend of mine from canada who recently received a grant to write her children's book mentioned to me that in brussels, the government recognizes that artists need TIME, baths, daydream*space, time to be, time to heal, TIME, baths, baths! ... makes me sigh so happily that this offering exists in parts of the world.

5. niches. discoveries. what do i mean? in recently forming a proposal for some funding, i have discovered my own unique niche. it brings me back to being first an artist vs. a business person. 

i am an artist. 

and i've discovered also that there is nothing wrong with honoring my need to be alone a lot. with plenty of privacy and quietude, i feel the most balanced, the most safe, the most productive. when i do then decide to be a part of activities in the world, i am likely at my best. i notice an imbalance in myself when i've gone through brief "party girl" phases in my past, or when i try to have a "full calendar" vs. honoring the need to focus on myself.

also, i have a TON to learn about marketing. who can help me with this? i am blessed to attend a seminar in the new year that will help me to fuse artistry with business. from an expert. keep learning. discover your strengths, your niches, but be willing to admit where you need a teammate, or teaching.  


kelly's golden rose ~ foto: krista abramoff

6. patience. it can take 2-5 years to solidify a small business' functioning. i hear of people having quicker successes, which is awesome, but remember too, especially if you're operating mostly solo-like, you may need to relax into needing a bit more time. and again, how can your time be supported? (savings? grants?) i've also felt incredibly grateful for the abundance of information these brilliant women entrepreneurs i've referenced above share publicly. engage with it! sidenote: i'm not the only one who has needed to borrow $20 at the end of the month. i'm not the only who has run out of money! :P i am not the only one curious about learning more mantras and mudras. i'm not the only one who has mourned the loss of a friendship ~ women sharing these stories reminds me that my moment of struggle has been experienced by many before me. ... while i really do enjoy being reminded that i am not alone, i wish also to express (especially if you identify as an empath) to have plenty of time just for you, for just your voice and your vision. don't allow yourself to be too influenced by others' methodology, especially if you're feeling super*clear by your own unique offering. stand strong, you cutie sponge.

7. on perfectionism. i recently read a tweet that said something like, "be careful, you creatives, of the double-edged sword that is your perfectionism." i was bowled over, y'all. a bit of a related angle is that i've been feeling pretty self*conscious lately about my age, and not soooooo much because my crow's feet are like, "HELLO," but because some part of me feels like i should be more accomplished at age 34 than i am. for me personally, there are a few angles that help me to diffuse this. my 20's were rough. i am grateful to be alive. perhaps someday i will expand on this, but i have reminded myself lately that that decade was about becoming whole so that my life could pop *now,* when i'm more ... me. BUT! back to perfectionism, which plays a tightly*wound role in my life sometimes ~ i've been able to make friends with it lately, to recognize when it's too rigid, and therefore re-form its role. at the time i read this tweet, i needed it, cuz i'd been cycling through the shadowy stuff (which needs to be seen and experienced so that we can ultimately transform it) ... but i was like, "girl, really? wtf is this old*skool body dysmorphia? grrrllll, what is this paranoia about people not liking you?" i think i needed all of this to rear its head again so that i could say, "whoa. there is hardly space for you in my life anymore, mean thoughts." so, perfectionists of the world :: know that you can re*form anything that feels too tight into something that floats like this here gorgeous morpho butterfly ~


and i say this to you and to me ~ don't hesitate to reach out about the dark stuff. i think we try to tuck it away and handle it on our own a lot. your inner*circle will show up for you. 

8. have amazing b/f/f's. collect them like the golden gems they are. when i am DOWN, i have those girls who know exactly how to speak to me ... who realize i may struggle to know what i need and how to ask for it, but simply give me time ... and nudges like, "Hey love, I was thinking of you on my way into work this morning. And my thought for us was, 'right now we are being asked to deepen our connection to our own well of emotion and those little spirit whispers we get.' It's a lot, and it may require some intensive solitude. If you're being called into deeper solo time, you're doing the right thing by taking a step back right now." 

oshun altar in brooklyn by marissa arterberry

9. what do you realllllllllllllllllllllyy need? i need to not have neighbors. i need a living situation that feels incredibly peaceful. i need my self-care to be consistently intact. i need to make art everyday. i need more money, and it comes. if your needs are not being met and therefore come up in your mind*body*spirit on thee daily, buck up, talk it out, work it out, and make the changes, but be nice to you as you explore and enact "the how's."

10. as my friend, selvin, says, "paint it good." spend time with elders, storytellers, wisdom*keepers. they always bring you back. keep it positive as often as possible, but don't try to shush your human experience either.


foto: dawn d.

11. i am working on a totem pole of words in tattoo-form. i began with guiltless and forgiveness, and envision the next two as, unapologetic and shameless. remind yourself of what you're working on. surrender to the jungle. get back on the pony. giggle the next time you get bucked off. get mad the next time you get bucked off. take breaks from social media. take breaks from telephones. have deep convos with your boo. keep your daily rituals flowing. partake in community. take breaks from community. collect fallen flowers. ocean.

be amazing to you. 


"rule your own life on your own terms." ~ amber rose

angel*reader, gracias ~ k *


foto: krista abramoff