photo by: carlos ramirez

photo by: carlos ramirez

Friday, May 23, 2014

interiority & self-care as sacred

" ... as though somehow looking within was a selfish/narcissitic thing to do ... but there is a version of interiority/inquiry that to me is a precursor to transcending the ego ... the ego needs to be developed in a self-knowledge way ... the more we know ourselves ... and art is an incredible way to get to know ourselves and to define what we care about, what we value, what we hate, what we enjoy, what we move away from, what we notice ... you know, artists are the sensitives of the culture, we're the priests and priestesses, the shamans ... so, the self-definition process ... to see it as a sacred process ... and the precursor to the eventual transcension of the self ...  it's really a sacred act to define yourself publicly." ~ Alanis Morissette

and from yoga goddess, elena brower: "When you are in the space of caring for yourself, fear and blame cannot thrive there. You are sacred, and caring for yourself is sacred action. And it’s the action that will teach the world how to treat you, and will remind you of your presence, and will help you stay close to the ground when it’s time to pray and when it’s time to forgive."

Wednesday, May 7, 2014


so, i heart flower*medicine. 

i grew up amongst wild prairie fields, i inhale satchels of lavender like a junkie, i dig the affects that i experience w/ flower essences, the majority of my tattoos are floral, i use roses and irises over and over in my performance art, i love the cooling feeling of rose water on my face and scalp,
i drink lots of magical loose teas that are flower-powered, and perhaps most excitingly, i've been informed by a gorgeous reiki master (tina lyon!) that in a past life, i sustained myself (nutritionally + spiritually) by nibbling palmfuls of flowers ~ what a gorgeous image this is, and one i return to envisioning when i need to feel reminded of my soul-lineage and magic. 

just last week, i began to understand and desire deeper work with flowers. the night after these thoughts began brewing, my b/f/f said the next day, "you should look into working with a florist." i'm on it! i have stuff to get through this week, but the hunt is on for early next, and my intention about learning in a flowery space is clear! so, arranging and designing is atop my list of new angles to learn w/ flowers, though i feel i will take to this quite naturally. *and* i feel excited about blending some of my own teas and using edible flowers more often @ home, just for general food-magic. 

check out this link below for a beautiful illustration 
of edible flowers,

i truly hope that flowers bring you joy and healing, too! 

... have a gorg day,

k *

 images taken by: janna o'shea in BK
creative copyright: ksw, 2010-forever.

Monday, April 28, 2014

processes: new/mind/ritualz

 a few weeks ago, i shared my artist's statement for new/mind/ritualz. to view it, click here. just today, i was able to conjure up this explanation about the project's further unfolding:

"i began working a month-ish+ ago on a memoir, called, babybutterflies ~ it's been really neat to be lead by it in the following ways, i mean, experience its morphing+clarity*building. it's actually become two projects. one project is the memoir itself, which really is a bunch of autobiographical essays on pertinent topics in my life. the other angle (or second tier of the project) is that these essays inspire smaller writings that are creative+funky+rap-like, and i'm sewing them into the body of my current performance art project, new/mind/ritualz. movement 1 of n/m/r consists of some old video footage from montauk last year; the old footage is becoming fused with new footage featuring the artist (me) as a strawberry*priestess. sounds will be recorded this week to place atop it all ~ these sounds are the ones referenced above ~ a little spoken word (story) informed by babybutterflies." 

it is not likely that i will share too much about "process" as this project is birthed. i prefer to let the art speak for itself, but for now, i do appreciate having archives (of my thoughts and how i'm being lead.) it is my hope that these writings resonate with fellow artist-friends. 

* * * update on 7.22.2014 ~ babybutteflies still very much informs new/mind/ritualz, but it most likely that babybutterflies will become a collection of poetry vs. a memoir-oriented (or confessional) document.

Monday, April 14, 2014


 i lovelovelovelovelove moon-magic. 
these moon-inspired words are so pertinent to me :::

"At this time, she's both the beginning and the end. You see her standing on the cusp, the medial woman straddling two worlds. One that is ending & one that is being birthed through her. She's free of the old. She's repaid her debt to her ancestors, grieved their losses, worked through the fears and wounds that was her inheritance. She's not holding, or passing on to her progeny, the fear based patterns of her ancestry. The only thing that's being passed on to her by her ancestors is their blessing. Her body is deeply relaxed. Her cellular structure & dna is opening up to the sacred circuitry of love. The old world order ends with her. Her body is ready as the holy vessel for birthing the new human. It is so because her sacred anatomy most matches the resonance of what is arriving ~ the marriage of the divine & human. She is in surrender that is deeper than she's ever felt before. She's ok being clue-less when there are no road-maps. Right now, she's pure mystery ~ in the final contraction of birthing. She's the mother giving birth, the child being born and also the midwife assisting the process.

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

new/mind/ritualz statement

new/mind/ritualz is my largest performance art project to date; it launches this spring. here is my statement ~ a piece of me, a piece of the bigger picture. 


kellyshawwillman *

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new/mind/ritualz is a 56-movement performance art piece that will be released one movement at a time until it is completed. some movements will be open to the public, while others will be documented in a more private setting by a single collaborator or altogether solo. as is true of performance art, the artist herself will be the primary medium.

the project's title alludes to a new “mind space” coming forth for the artist, a rebirth of sorts, but before the wholeness of this rebirth can be embodied, a little story-telling (from/of the past) comes first. new/mind/ritualz will ultimately explore memories, demonstrate moments of growth in the present, and invoke rituals of healing for the future.

each movement will vary in length and content, and will be documented through video, still images, and self-portraiture. ritual items will include, but are not limited to: strawberries, easter candy and eggs, roses, glitter, colorful water, 111 golden hummingbirds, 1,111 small open-faced boxes, corn kernels, children's barrettes, sponge animals in bulk, etc.

this project was conceived by kelly shaw willman. as each movement is completed, it will launch on her blog and facebook pages.

project & writing above © kelly shaw willman 2014-forever

still image from movement 1, by: max janoff

still image from movement 1, by: max janoff

Sunday, March 30, 2014

new moon

i am really grateful for this new moon and for the spring season's new vibes. my rituals and prayers around these special times are gentle and quiet, because i do not have much space or privacy. i did however create this prayer, which can accompany any ritual you feel is appropriate, though simply re-reading it and then saying it aloud once or twice will suffice. :)

"i release all of the individual (specific) peeps who have caused pain to my heart. their unresolved trauma is not mine, and i will not carry it anymore. my body will not take on this weight. my spirit will not take on this weight." 

and thank you to leann for inspiring this validation-prayer, which is another great one for this season of awakening ~ "i recognize that i am here for spirit and that spirit is here for me. spirit recognizes spirit, and my true friends are doing work for spirit, too. i give thanks for all of my truest women friends. i love you and i will grow with you. i choose relationships that are true and good for me from henceforth."

dear new moon, i love you. i trust that your great presence will affect my heart and cells as it is supposed to. i receive the need for change, and pray that the physical world will deliver what i need within this week in order to promote this much-needed shift, please and thank you.
soul sisters

last spring in cali

honoring maxie

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

springtime journal 2

soooo, i was re-reading something i wrote in my first springtime journal published earlier today, and i want to clarify a few things. i wrote about "brain battles" ... and i mentioned that for some months now, i haven't really engaged with the ping pong pattern of it all, which is not to say that i haven't had some moments of feeling emotionally overwhelmed as of late. i give thanks that in these times of overwhelm, i can write to or speak with a few of my b/f/f's - - (love u arhia and mirra!) ... i guess this is the main point that i wish to clarify. i do not want it come across like i figured something out or have achieved some great feat - - i am a work in progress. :P

i also wanted to share something i believe in pretty boldly, which is this :: expressing one's feelings (in a blog, to your peeps, through art) is such a necessity, berries. do not let folks convince you otherwise. you deserve to be heard and understood ~ choose folks who can provide you with this. having said this though, know that you are not gonna be a good match for everybody out there, so ... a. be content with a quaint group of excellent friends vs. a large group of "bullshit friends," and ... b. it is the most okay thing ever to have boundaries with peeps who are not well or who have been abusive to you. you are not responsible for fixing others.

miscellaneous notes (in brief) before my chamomile, lavender, and melatonin carry me away to zzzzzzzz*land ... 

* * in my 20's, my processes were hella raw - - in life, in dealing with pain, in finding my way to moments of balance, in my art. in lots of ways, there is still a rawness to my conduct and creativity. i do value this rawness, but believe very much in taking space to provide clarification **and** in setting more mature intentions. i especially believe in "more mature intentions" as far as creating artwork is concerned. 

* * i also wanted to share that this blog is my playground for sharing my artwork, namely. sometimes these journals come forth in addition to art-stuff. ... i mean, i just get really excited at the prospect of ... looking back on all of the processes that are documented here - - these images and writings that are my life and the lives of the artist's i've interviewed, etc. i really believe in "process" and i really get excited about generating archives.

p.s. ... time to deepen my sitting meditation practice. can't scoot around that need, giggle!